greatest christmas gift

i've been thinking weird lately. parang pi-ne-pressure ko yata ang sarili ko. ang weird ko. feeling ko im becoming too late to do things on time. i became "emotionally" sick for the past few days and im glad im starting to move on.

ang hirap pala ng ganung feeling, specially if you're being hard on yourself. i acted weird, i thought weird, and worst... i hurt myself.

salamat sa mga taong nanjan. salamat sa concern ninyo. but you know what, na-realize ko na the greatest person na makakatulong sa akin is yung sarili ko rin. i need to love myself. well, i do. i really do. sa sobrang love ko sa sarili ko, i had set so much standards and qualifications that i forgot to appreciate what i have. ang weird. i dont like a person na sobrang perfectionist, but it turned out na i am a perfectionist myself... sa sarili ko pa.

ang galing ni Lord. on the brighter side of this situation, i have learned that i really cannot boast anything to Him. im not perfect.. so is everybody. we are designed this way and what we need to do is to accept our great points as well as our failures.

mahal kita sarili ko. the greatest gift i can give you is my appreciation. i love everything in me. my good points. my failures. without them, i cannot be "me".

*thanks dude for these points. ang dami kong napulot.*